Hate Myself

“Hate Myself” was released on January 12, 2021 and is the third single off of dodie’s debut studio album "Build a Problem".

In the pre-release livestream for the music video, dodie said “It’s actually about passive aggression, it’s interesting, it’s more about when- I think it’s like a feeling that I have to deal with when someone else in my life, be it a partner or a friend, like, goes quiet, like, thinks introspectively and deals with their problems internally, I freak out, ‘cause I’m like, ‘I’m the problem,’ like, ‘what have I done, to make you feel upset?’ And that’s probably coming from past trauma.” She also mentioned a comment describing it as “finding anxiety in someone’s silence.”

“'Hate Myself” is an inner monologue of someone who seems to find themselves in relationships of any kind with people who deal with their feelings internally – unfortunately resulting in assuming the issue is with them.

The music video is filmed over the span of a few days in the beautiful seaside village of Polperro in Cornwall, and also a boat in London. My video partner and the director Sammy Paul and I excitedly landed on the silly idea of the training leading up to becoming a post-lady, and thoroughly enjoyed planning the many bizarre exercises she would have to perfect. Our excellent Art Director, Louis Grant, worked on bringing her home and training station to life. Though jogging on cliff tops in the rain, carrying a large sack and slipping in the mud was certainly cold and exhausting, I think I preferred it to slowly feeling sicker, licking stamps on a swaying boat by the Excel.'" - via DIY Mag

"'This was written on a guitalele, and it was definitely inspired by HAIM and ‘Now I’m in It.’ I just thought the lyric ‘When you go quiet, I hate myself’ was so funny. It was certainly something I was feeling but didn’t know how to deal with, so I just laughed it off in that line.'"

—via Apple Music